After quite a day, I witnessed the day ends slowly.
The sky was red--- the sun was setting.
Vacantly, I stared at the upper part of the sky.
… when I saw an object familiar yet looks different to me.
The full moon tonight feels rather different.
Strangely there was a feeling it will collide with the course of earth,
It is abnormally close, like there is something… incorrect.
The clear night without stars but one felt extremely weird.
Maybe it’s just me,
In some way it reminds me of the end of the world.
Occasionally, I thought about it before I went to sleep.
Trying to get a picture, I am always too scared to imagine further.
I know imagining the Armageddon would be no use.
All I have to do is to believe in it,
Believe that the promised day will come, someday.
… in any case, I should not think deeply about it.
True… the future is still unknown, and no one can actually foretell.
Tick tock tick tock, the clock is still ticking.
However,
The amount of sand left in the upper part of the hourglass keeps depleting.
And, without a doubt, it will run out someday.
Ah, I can’t seem to put the proper images in my head,
I am just hoping to be no longer here when the sun stops shining.
Although this is “a dream”,
The pain given in this live is excruciating and unforgettable.
Life is a gift and a curse in a different way,
It is a dream happening in each and everyone’s head.
When people take them with ease, then life will take them the same way.
When people take them for granted… then… life will also take them for granted.
The universe is simply aging,
Time will not stop, unless it broke down.
When it does,
The long, twisted tale of humanity will end.
… who knows what will happen next?
Everyone has their own view, because they are living in their own dream.
……….
… With a huff, I got out of the car,
The blackening sky is no longer displaying the sun.
The moon and the lonely star observed at me silently,
In a dream so long, a dream people dreamed, dreaming, and will dream of…
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Kamis, 17 Juli 2008
Rabu, 16 Juli 2008
An Evening Prayer
When I come to, I was eating the usual fried noodles for lunch.
The canteen was lively; most of junior high school students took their meal there.
Yes, I know exactly too much instant noodle isn’t good for my health,
But I wasn’t felt like eating any other, so I took them instead.
As soon as I finished them, the bell was ringing.
The loud noise summoned me to the class,
It is time for the last subject, math
Returning the empty plate, I left the cafeteria,
There is no chance I would take the risk to be late for the next class,
Especially in the subject which is most likely, the most important.
While climbing the stairs, I gazed at the clock, it was 12.46
I refused to stroll around much longer and got straight to the class.
Calmly, I sat on my chair,
As expected, the class was still quiet, since not many got there yet,
Despite of my straight look, I was a little bit rowdy inside,
This always happens before the subject--- I got used to it already.
I hate math.
Since I was in the seventh grade, that subject lost my favor.
A certain reason which is now not important is the key reason to it,
Still, I can’t get it, why still I hate it even though the cause of it has disappeared?
While I was drowning in a deep thought, the teacher came in.
Like a shock effect, I was snapped out of from my daydream.
“… or, here he is.” ------ the math teacher came in,
I might have not realized it, but the class was already full,
I wasn’t paying attention at all; it is like a bad habit
The noisy class turned silent at that second.
Somehow… the class atmosphere turned heavy.
That was supposed to be the time to elect the class president.
But… it appeared things weren’t they supposed to be,
By a disturbing autocracy, he selected the class representatives
… with his own hand, without our interference.
I knew initially he was not a bad teacher,
He is not your typical killer teacher type
Rather… his unusual way to do things is unpopular,
I somewhat disliked him, even though I feel no hatred.
He won’t scold you much, but his words might pierce you to death.
He is also included in my “1001 Reason Why I Hate Math” list.
When you feel his presence, somehow you can feel the oxygen has been drained out.
This is personally how I feel, and I can confirm that these are not simply a hyperbole.
So, the election was ended quick thanks of his quick ways to do them.
It’s not like I was after the class president position; I had enough of it last year.
Just------ his method is utterly unacceptable to me.
I was intending to abject, but I didn’t see the benefit of it--- so I sat back.
He jumped to the subject right after, as if there was no time to spare.
Looking at his background, actually he is a college professor.
That is exactly the problem lied,
Because of that, he is treating us like a prepared college student, or something.
His smile is dark, so dark you may tremble by only seeing it.
The way he speak is friendly, but you could only feel cruelty
The way he ignore things, it is… elusive.
Not the teacher you would want to mess with, I presume.
So, I tried his way to ignore things and just listen to what he is trying to teach.
Minutes were past----- exercise of the subject was given.
It was the first math exercise given in this semester,
When I tried to get them done, I was astonished
Most of the class was finished already,
Amazing… I didn’t know what comment I should spout.
I realized it.
My efforts was not simply good enough,
Well, there is no reason to give up, is there?
………. I’ll just have to try harder,
Human mind has no actual limit,
I believe I am not at my limit, so I have to try to at least get close to it.
Again, in a relatively long yet also short instance in the same time,
The bell ringed again, instructing us to leave the classroom.
In another deep thought, I sighed and left the school without a word.
What I wanted was just getting home quick.
By the hill heading home, I wonder,
They say too much ambition will corrode you,
I suppress them under control already, I guess.
Under the evening light, I prayed so I could get this over with a nice way.
……. I know when there is a will, there is a way.
Strengthen my will and find my way should be written in my agenda,
Now,
I shall start now.
The canteen was lively; most of junior high school students took their meal there.
Yes, I know exactly too much instant noodle isn’t good for my health,
But I wasn’t felt like eating any other, so I took them instead.
As soon as I finished them, the bell was ringing.
The loud noise summoned me to the class,
It is time for the last subject, math
Returning the empty plate, I left the cafeteria,
There is no chance I would take the risk to be late for the next class,
Especially in the subject which is most likely, the most important.
While climbing the stairs, I gazed at the clock, it was 12.46
I refused to stroll around much longer and got straight to the class.
Calmly, I sat on my chair,
As expected, the class was still quiet, since not many got there yet,
Despite of my straight look, I was a little bit rowdy inside,
This always happens before the subject--- I got used to it already.
I hate math.
Since I was in the seventh grade, that subject lost my favor.
A certain reason which is now not important is the key reason to it,
Still, I can’t get it, why still I hate it even though the cause of it has disappeared?
While I was drowning in a deep thought, the teacher came in.
Like a shock effect, I was snapped out of from my daydream.
“… or, here he is.” ------ the math teacher came in,
I might have not realized it, but the class was already full,
I wasn’t paying attention at all; it is like a bad habit
The noisy class turned silent at that second.
Somehow… the class atmosphere turned heavy.
That was supposed to be the time to elect the class president.
But… it appeared things weren’t they supposed to be,
By a disturbing autocracy, he selected the class representatives
… with his own hand, without our interference.
I knew initially he was not a bad teacher,
He is not your typical killer teacher type
Rather… his unusual way to do things is unpopular,
I somewhat disliked him, even though I feel no hatred.
He won’t scold you much, but his words might pierce you to death.
He is also included in my “1001 Reason Why I Hate Math” list.
When you feel his presence, somehow you can feel the oxygen has been drained out.
This is personally how I feel, and I can confirm that these are not simply a hyperbole.
So, the election was ended quick thanks of his quick ways to do them.
It’s not like I was after the class president position; I had enough of it last year.
Just------ his method is utterly unacceptable to me.
I was intending to abject, but I didn’t see the benefit of it--- so I sat back.
He jumped to the subject right after, as if there was no time to spare.
Looking at his background, actually he is a college professor.
That is exactly the problem lied,
Because of that, he is treating us like a prepared college student, or something.
His smile is dark, so dark you may tremble by only seeing it.
The way he speak is friendly, but you could only feel cruelty
The way he ignore things, it is… elusive.
Not the teacher you would want to mess with, I presume.
So, I tried his way to ignore things and just listen to what he is trying to teach.
Minutes were past----- exercise of the subject was given.
It was the first math exercise given in this semester,
When I tried to get them done, I was astonished
Most of the class was finished already,
Amazing… I didn’t know what comment I should spout.
I realized it.
My efforts was not simply good enough,
Well, there is no reason to give up, is there?
………. I’ll just have to try harder,
Human mind has no actual limit,
I believe I am not at my limit, so I have to try to at least get close to it.
Again, in a relatively long yet also short instance in the same time,
The bell ringed again, instructing us to leave the classroom.
In another deep thought, I sighed and left the school without a word.
What I wanted was just getting home quick.
By the hill heading home, I wonder,
They say too much ambition will corrode you,
I suppress them under control already, I guess.
Under the evening light, I prayed so I could get this over with a nice way.
……. I know when there is a will, there is a way.
Strengthen my will and find my way should be written in my agenda,
Now,
I shall start now.
Selasa, 15 Juli 2008
Chemical Rage
Subhanallah.
Mungkin cuma itu kata yang tepat untuk melihat keadaan ane sekarang.
Rasanya baru kemaren ane daftar di SDPN Sabang di Jl. Sabang nomor 1, gak nyangka ane udah dua kali ganti warna celana!
Jujur, ane bener bener nyesel akan waktu yang telah ilang selama ane hidup selama 16 tahun, tapi seperti yang mereka bilang, penyesalan selalu datang terlambat, kan? Sungguh ane kira, sesal banget seengaknya masa kecil gak dipake main piano.
Akhir akhir ini ane ngambil biola, ehm, pokoknya belum bisa diceritain apa motifnya. Mungkin karena ane terkesima dengan lagu klasik "Tzigane"-nya Raven. Kalau hoki, giat, dan emang aye ada bakat, insya allah, aye mungkin aja bisa mainin "Vain" nya Tsukihime untuk modal stress di rumah, mwahahahahahhaha.....!
Talking about skill, akhir akhir ini aye ditawari peran penting disekolah, dan, subhanallah, gak main main, peran main di "drama", Olimpiade Kimia!
Bukan rahasia umum di SMPN 7 dulu, kalau aye emang bener bener addict dan maniak soal kimia, kalau ditanya obsesi sama iklan Star Mild, pasti obsesi ane jadi Profesor sinting yang suka ada di kartun kartun waktu jaman kita kecil---- whoa, I just love the thing which blows!
Alhamdulillah, kalau pak Albiker, guru baru Kimia kelas XI bilang aye punya bakat di bidang ini, I'll just give it all! Ternyata kata orang bahwa "Love Conquers All" adalah betuuuul! Karena Kimia baru "lampu hijau" sekarang, aye bakal kejar sekeras mungkin. Cannot let this pass by....!
Kenapa? I just want to be extraordinary.
Menurut nasehat seorang bijak pada ane, beliau berkata, "Janganlah puas dengan menjadi orang yang rata-rata, apalagi dibawah rata rata". Why? Karena orang dibawah rata-rata itu "kebangetan", orang rata-rata itu "kebanyakan", itulah alasan singkat mengapa orang harus berusaha untuk jadi yang terbaik. Arena balap dalam hidup itu kejam, that's why you have to strive for it!
Mungkin cuma itu kata yang tepat untuk melihat keadaan ane sekarang.
Rasanya baru kemaren ane daftar di SDPN Sabang di Jl. Sabang nomor 1, gak nyangka ane udah dua kali ganti warna celana!
Jujur, ane bener bener nyesel akan waktu yang telah ilang selama ane hidup selama 16 tahun, tapi seperti yang mereka bilang, penyesalan selalu datang terlambat, kan? Sungguh ane kira, sesal banget seengaknya masa kecil gak dipake main piano.
Akhir akhir ini ane ngambil biola, ehm, pokoknya belum bisa diceritain apa motifnya. Mungkin karena ane terkesima dengan lagu klasik "Tzigane"-nya Raven. Kalau hoki, giat, dan emang aye ada bakat, insya allah, aye mungkin aja bisa mainin "Vain" nya Tsukihime untuk modal stress di rumah, mwahahahahahhaha.....!
Talking about skill, akhir akhir ini aye ditawari peran penting disekolah, dan, subhanallah, gak main main, peran main di "drama", Olimpiade Kimia!
Bukan rahasia umum di SMPN 7 dulu, kalau aye emang bener bener addict dan maniak soal kimia, kalau ditanya obsesi sama iklan Star Mild, pasti obsesi ane jadi Profesor sinting yang suka ada di kartun kartun waktu jaman kita kecil---- whoa, I just love the thing which blows!
Alhamdulillah, kalau pak Albiker, guru baru Kimia kelas XI bilang aye punya bakat di bidang ini, I'll just give it all! Ternyata kata orang bahwa "Love Conquers All" adalah betuuuul! Karena Kimia baru "lampu hijau" sekarang, aye bakal kejar sekeras mungkin. Cannot let this pass by....!
Kenapa? I just want to be extraordinary.
Menurut nasehat seorang bijak pada ane, beliau berkata, "Janganlah puas dengan menjadi orang yang rata-rata, apalagi dibawah rata rata". Why? Karena orang dibawah rata-rata itu "kebangetan", orang rata-rata itu "kebanyakan", itulah alasan singkat mengapa orang harus berusaha untuk jadi yang terbaik. Arena balap dalam hidup itu kejam, that's why you have to strive for it!
Ane pernah baca sebuah artikel yang bener bener ekstra pedas yang lebih pedas dari sambel ABC dan lebih garing dari bojegan ini. Artikel ini pada dasarnya menyatakan bahwa remaja Indonesia adalah pemalas, dan blah blah blah--- yang secara tidak langsung menyatakan generasi kita itu generasi yang [maaf] tolol, karena malas adalah pangkal dari kebodohan! Mari kita buktikan bahwa ini tidak benar!!
Kebetulan, kalau ane mungkin do'anya ambil dari sini, I might just got what you need.
أَعُوذُ بِاللّهِ أَنْ أَكُونَ مِنَ الْجَاهِلِينَ
"...Aku berlindung pada Allah agar tidak termasuk orang orang yang bodoh"
(Qur'an Surah Al- Baqarah: 67)
(Qur'an Surah Al- Baqarah: 67)
Jadi? Go for it!
Olimpiade Kimia bener bener mendekat! Ane tahu persis saingan ane banyak. Contoh, seorang penguasa TB yang kabarnya berotak orisinil ekspor dari planet Mars, Krisna. atau seorang yang dikenal akan semangat yang luar biasa keras dan didukung oleh karisma tinggi juga ilmu, Malika. Dan lawan lawan tangguh lain, tapi, jika Allah mengizinkan. Jika ane udah berusaha sebaik mungkin--- tawakal. Mungkin aja ane jadi salah satu bagian dari tim yang menang di olimpiade ini!
I'll try my best!
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